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Transition process so far

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 So this is actually more of an information post to catch people up or inform on the medical process up to this point. I know I had to do a little more research than I wanted to since transitioning is still kind of political and thus finding accurate information in harder then expected. 1) I knew I should transition to female because my entire life I related to female rather than male. It is actually some of my earliest memories of feeing I'd be happier as a girl. Many times I've found myself compressing how I normally would act just because it violated social norms. I did experient with dressing from early on and did so off an on for the first half of my life. I didn't transition earlier because I felt logically it would make more sense to give trying the way I was born a real chance before actually fixing it. Though I don't regret that decision, I do wish I started earlier. Almost every day of my life I considered something about transitioning to female. Since startin...
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The Domestic Mundane

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   So I recently moved in with my boy friend who I've been with for a while now. I quit my career job a few weeks ago and pretty much slowly moving into the housewife type role. Now I should say that I'm not 100% there yet. There are logistics I'm finishing up which take time and other things. For example, finishing up paperwork on Name/Gender changes (legally done), finding new medical insurance, changin address, moving things and other logistics. Also I'm very lucky to be with an understanding man who is giving me some space to move in the right direction before a firmer hand is used.   A few of the things I've been consisently doing is laundry, spot cleaning, dishes. He's actually a pretty good cook and been doing that more because of the Holiday season. Chances are next week I'll slowly start moving into that role as well along with the more thourough house cleaning and rest of the domestic wife duties.    So what is the posting about other then a fast s...
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My Return after a Haitus

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   So wow, 2020 ended with me being very occupied with many facets of life that kind of snuck up with me along with the enjoyable complications of Covid-19 thrown in. I'm hoping now that I'm starting to have a little more free time again I can start to update both on my current progress and whats been going on.   The first is that hormones has been very kind of to. Whereas I was in no way passable when I began in November 2021, I'm now mostly passable. By that I mean people have to do several looks to see that I'm not born female. This is with the handicap of being taller as well. Due to busy schedule, I'm behind where I should be on the weight loss, but that said most see me as athletic then actually over weight. My goal is to be slender though so that is still many months away. In 2021 I do plan to do many surgeries. I'll be seeing doctors over the next few months actually on that regard and besides augmentations hope to finish 2021 with the actual gender reas...
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The Value of Men and Women

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   Fair warning, this blog post could be scene as offensive, and maybe more academic. As I explore relationship dynamics and the difference/similarity of men/women and expectations, roles and so on its well known that men and women kind of look for different things. For example, men have the stereotype of caring only about a woman's appearance and for sex. Whereas women have the stereotype of caring only about how rich or powerful the man is. These are ofcourse stereotypes, but there is always some truth to them even if misapplied by people.   We're also in an exciting time from a anthropological point of view. Technology has drastically changed the nature of relationship. In many ways we're moving away from traditional relationships towards a more equal based relationship rather than equality based relationship. I'm not going to say its wrong, but I do see it largely in the 1.0 model type. Meaning that there are going to be lots of problems and bugs that 2.0 model wi...
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Emotions!

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  So going into HRT I knew there would be things happening to my emotional state. For one, I would probably become more emotional. I could also anticipate a kind of "second puberty." I knew that some emotions would be easier to tip off doing so as well. What has surprised me is that even knowing all of this, many emotional things have caught me off guard.    Before going into this, I want to disclaim that this is my own personal experience. Furthermore, I have a more unique past which gave me way better control over my emotions then others. Though I'm sure I'm emotionally healthy and have been for a long time, I should note that this does make me go into the male to female transition differently then others in my position would. This could mean previously suprrseed emotions being released (I doubt that) or just lessening of control. A very obvious one is that I used to be able to hide my emotional state incredibly well. I used to be almost impossible to read. I don...
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Getting into SHAPE

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   So I haven't written an entry recently even though there has been a lot hitting me the past month or so. Truth be told, I have written, but for various reasons didn't post them. Anyways, one thing that occurred to me with my last progress update was that those postings are about to become less often. Not because I've slowed down or given up or anything, but just there are less obvious "road signs" to report. My hormone therapy is largely steady now. That next appointment is still like 4 months away. Voice in making steady progress but nothing noteworthy other then getting better. I continue o diet, work out and other adjustments. So nothing really created a stimuli for me to make a new posting on that front. I have unfortunately slowed down on the weight loss aspect. I'm still losing weight, but largely change of routine do the the covid-19 hit me hard. I work best with routine/structure and suddenly losing ability to go to gym, not going to work, being hom...
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OMG! I'm getting into fashion...

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  Okay, maybe not a huge shocker on this. But to put things into context, I'm going to reference an older post I did on force feminization. That tag is probably going to become a theme in several of these postings. So anyways, I feel that in many ways I'm unique compared to other 'trans' people transitioning to the other gender. Two the more obvious things being that I fully working towards transitioning fully to female including the sex change surgery but also that I'm taking the whole thing seriously as well. For example, I easily exercise 1-2 hours a day, changed lifestyle, making necessary changes and so on to become passable as soon as healthily possible.   Anyways, one of the reasons I'm more unique on this though is that I don't define myself by my transitioning goals. I'm not flamboyant, I'm not a trans/lgbt advocate, I don't care if people 'misgender me.' When you look at my personality, it really is kind of the same category a...
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