OMG! I'm getting into fashion...

  Okay, maybe not a huge shocker on this. But to put things into context, I'm going to reference an older post I did on force feminization. That tag is probably going to become a theme in several of these postings. So anyways, I feel that in many ways I'm unique compared to other 'trans' people transitioning to the other gender. Two the more obvious things being that I fully working towards transitioning fully to female including the sex change surgery but also that I'm taking the whole thing seriously as well. For example, I easily exercise 1-2 hours a day, changed lifestyle, making necessary changes and so on to become passable as soon as healthily possible.

  Anyways, one of the reasons I'm more unique on this though is that I don't define myself by my transitioning goals. I'm not flamboyant, I'm not a trans/lgbt advocate, I don't care if people 'misgender me.' When you look at my personality, it really is kind of the same category as someone who suddenly cared about their body adopting a healthy lifestyle.  Or someone changing careers and needing to retrain. Its kind of like that. I'm still nerdy, I still do side projects, this is rarely a topic I bring up into even weekly conversation and so on. So thats why I kind of refer to things like this as forced feminization.

  I went more into what I mean by that last time, but to put it shortly, its things changing about my lifestyle because of my transition, not something that I actively seeked out to do before necessary. A good example of this would be sports bra. I barely ever wore a bra till a few months ago when I had to because my chest was to sensititve to run otherwise.

  So this brings me to this topic. A few weeks ago I took my first 'progression picture' of myself where I actually felt like I could become passable (not just numbers on paper saying so). Every update picture, I do change what I'm wearing a little bit simply because I'm trying to find what looks good on me, even though I'm only about half way to my passability goals right now. Anyways, with that picture, for the first time I really started making deliberate choices on my appreance. I did my hair a little bit differently, I changed the colors and clothing around a little bit. And now for my next 'progression' picture in a few weeks, I'm starting to look at clothes based on what I think I would look good in more then just having something to wear for that picture or in case something unexpected comes up.

  In the last 2-3 weeks I think I've spent more time looking at clothes then I have the last 2-3 years. I'm starting to care more about fits, fashion, what goes with what and so on. Earlier today, I think I spent 1 hour looking at a few new websites to see what they had. I'm also starting to look forward to getting new clothes! Now I've always cared about not looking like a slob and being presentatble, but now its certainly starting to turn into an interest. Its the beginnings of it, and I'm not there yet fully like on the shoes, make up, hair styles front but I've now noticed that I'm getting into fashion more. It also fits neatly timeline wise (no planning done here) that I should hopefully have a doable fashion sense by the time I start living female 24/7.

  Okay, so my preamble here is way longer then the actual point of this entry. Its just a new interest that kind of snuck up on me the past few weeks that I didn't think woul dhappen for at least another year if at all. Exciting!