Patriarchy, male superiority

A few times every week there are certain things that really help crystalize how right I am to work towards my feminization goals. One of the ones that really stood out to me this week is stress!!! I stress out really easily over every day things. Its one of the many things I try to avoid along with conflict which kind of shows that I fit better in traditionally feminine roles/personalities. For Examples, just talking normal buisness when say buying a car, or bigger purchases. Or dealing with Customers who are nice to me but not happy with the company I'm with, or things like that. It really causes me to stress out easily. I think about past failed relationships where I pretended to be something I'm not, and how I stress out over both me and them.

The stress also causes me to worry over things that I know a real man would never worry about. Like for example, I'm nerdy in that I like Magic the Gathering. When I used to trade cards with other players back in college, I would have chances to do trades that myself and they were happy with, but I wouldn't allow myself to do it if I knew I was clearly getting the better deal because I would feel so guilty. Or when I make orders for food at restaruants, I take sooo long to figure out what I want because I don't want to mess up on what would be a better food choice, especially if I'm new to the place. And then if I find one I like, i always get the same order because I worry about ordering something not as good.

Anyways, the point of this is that the stress I get over decision making and some of the related things are one of the many things that happens every week that gives me confidence that I'm doing the right thing about accepting that I should never of been born male and better suited to the female gender.