The dumb girl thing
I posted on this before, but after reflection I felt better to do a follow up post on it rather than just edit that one. One of the things I've always been attracted to is gender roles or in this case gender stereotypes. There any many reasons for this. In one aspect I think it adds to the 180 degree change in who I am and who I will be. Well, I guess in my case more of a 170 degree change, hehe. But it also adds to aspects such as the patriarchy and gender roles.
To recap from the earlier post, I am attracted to the idea that men are smarter. And honestly, that is true in many ways. Most know men are more logical, mathematical, drawn to the STEM careers more, usually end up in leadership positions and so on. Evolutionary speaking, women are valued mainly for appearance and domestic capabilities which should certainly be where I orient myself more towards. The question I was struggling with was rather I'd myself dumbing down to be an aspect of my future relationship with a real man. Rather its me actually doing the iq reduction, or pretending it or being treated that way or just to outsiders, or not at all. Generally I'm pretty malleable and in all honestly i'm still open to any of those if the guy as a strong opinion on it, I do know better what I my preference would be.
So the main thing that was contradicting all of that is that there are only a few things I do know I want to maintain regardless of the type of girl or relationship I end up in. That being that I enjoy gaming and my scifi/fantasy interest and some of my more creative interests like writing and such. Hehe, now that I write that, i guess a lot of "egirls" are into that type of thing and wouldn't be considered smart, which is one of the reasonss I'm still open to that, but I think my preference and when I say preference I really do mean a soft bonus but not required in any way would be treated like a dumb girl or at least one not valued for intelligence without myself doing the active iq reduction thing.
I think I figured a lot of that out as I'm currently binge watching the big bang theory and I'm attracted to how most of the guys in that show treats penny. I like how sheldon automatically mansplains everything to her, I like how Howard is constantly objectifying her for example both of which are things they'd do regardless of how smart or dumb that Pennie actually was.
So to summarize my very long winded there. What I would Ideally want would probably be a guy who treats my like my intelligence doesn't matter or isn't there and would especially be upset if I tried to act smarter then He believes a girl should be when around other people. Or If I did, would enjoy gaslighting or mansplaining me or putting me back in a womans place.
As you can see I'm naturally intelligent and I honestly feel that is a source of like 80% of my self pride. I think that is one of the reasons that aspect of my feminization helps make it more complete, learning to rely on men for smarts whereas I'm used to that role myself.
To recap from the earlier post, I am attracted to the idea that men are smarter. And honestly, that is true in many ways. Most know men are more logical, mathematical, drawn to the STEM careers more, usually end up in leadership positions and so on. Evolutionary speaking, women are valued mainly for appearance and domestic capabilities which should certainly be where I orient myself more towards. The question I was struggling with was rather I'd myself dumbing down to be an aspect of my future relationship with a real man. Rather its me actually doing the iq reduction, or pretending it or being treated that way or just to outsiders, or not at all. Generally I'm pretty malleable and in all honestly i'm still open to any of those if the guy as a strong opinion on it, I do know better what I my preference would be.
So the main thing that was contradicting all of that is that there are only a few things I do know I want to maintain regardless of the type of girl or relationship I end up in. That being that I enjoy gaming and my scifi/fantasy interest and some of my more creative interests like writing and such. Hehe, now that I write that, i guess a lot of "egirls" are into that type of thing and wouldn't be considered smart, which is one of the reasonss I'm still open to that, but I think my preference and when I say preference I really do mean a soft bonus but not required in any way would be treated like a dumb girl or at least one not valued for intelligence without myself doing the active iq reduction thing.
I think I figured a lot of that out as I'm currently binge watching the big bang theory and I'm attracted to how most of the guys in that show treats penny. I like how sheldon automatically mansplains everything to her, I like how Howard is constantly objectifying her for example both of which are things they'd do regardless of how smart or dumb that Pennie actually was.
So to summarize my very long winded there. What I would Ideally want would probably be a guy who treats my like my intelligence doesn't matter or isn't there and would especially be upset if I tried to act smarter then He believes a girl should be when around other people. Or If I did, would enjoy gaslighting or mansplaining me or putting me back in a womans place.
As you can see I'm naturally intelligent and I honestly feel that is a source of like 80% of my self pride. I think that is one of the reasons that aspect of my feminization helps make it more complete, learning to rely on men for smarts whereas I'm used to that role myself.
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