The only girl

I spend a lot of time trying to figure out more of what I want both in my feminization and in a relationship. One of the things that I've always felt would be more natural and good for me is doing the 180 degrees change from independent/capable (which I feel like I'm failing at to be honest) to the vulnerable female. A lot of time when I mention something like that to people, they think mainly of bdsm related things, and though I'm not opposed to that, i think more about the every day things that girls have become accusomed to both physically and mentally.

Like physically, everything about a girl is already inferior to men and then social expectations double down on that. For example, girls smaller, weaker and less capable then men in muscle mass and things. That automatically makes women more dependent on the people around them for things as simple as buying a lot of groceries, or being able to defend themselves. Then there is the fashion. Heels make it almost impossible for girls to have fast movement. Tight clothing limits comfort and mobility. Long nails make it harder to do things with hands. Long hair makes it easy for men to control her. Dresses/skirts limit ability to do manual labor and so on.

Then there is the mental aspect and in a lot of ways I believe this will be the most humbling, hardest to get used to and healthiest for me to accustom myself too. Girls are naturally more emotional and make more emotional decisions and harder to think rationally. Also there is general expectations that girls don't need to figure things out for themselves. Like asking for help on things. I've done a lot of pretending to be the opposite of thing and its getting harder and harder for me every day and I know once I start hormones it will become almost impossible. So being emotionally vulnerable and open to people around me will be very different.

Then there is the aspect of being reminded of all of those things. From the physical of men feel free to slap a woman's ass or emphasize who is physically superior to being reminded of the mental handipcap on things.