Inherent Personality Traits
A small tidbit that you might find interesting. Sometimes you see larger gaps between my posts then others and sometimes you see a lot of posts right next to each other accross a few days. I'm actually reasonably consistent on when I write which is usually a post every few days. I only write when something is on my mind that I want to right about, but I only publish about half of the blog entrees I have. I wouldn't say that I am a perfectionist by any means, but if when I'm done writing I dont feel I properly conveyed most of what I was tryin gto say, I usually just save it and not publish it. Afterall, the main reason I post is actually just to express my thoughts in writing, the publishing was an afterthought, hehe.
Anyways, I say that because I notice that I haven't posted anything in a little over a week now even though I've written a few. This time I want to write about a youtube video I saw. I tried really hard to find it to link onto this article but there were too many videos similar to it but not it so I couldn't find it. THe title of the video was something like why intelligent people have fewer friends or traits x traits of intelligent people. The video really had me thinking because like 9 out of the 10 traits were things about me. Things like very few friends, no interest in normal drama/gossip, more into personal projects and things like that.
If you've read any number of my articles, and allow for spelling/grammar/structure errors, it is probably obvious at this point that I'm pretty intelligent. Hehe, so I know what some of you are thinking, my writing doesn't prove it. Keep in mind that, as I mentioned a few posts ago, I stopped fixing my grammar errors and allow myself to go on tangents more often now to help feminize/reduce the image of my intelligence which Is why I don't proof read any of this stuff before I post if I feel good about it afterwards. And in a way, I'm revisiting to dumb/smart thing.
To refresh that, I am super attracted to relationship dynamics of contrast and smart man/dumb woman, gender roles and the stuff like that. i've already written a lot about that so I'm not going to rehash all the reasons, but it is a conflict I deal with. Because I'm kind of attracted that way, super attracted to the idea of being treated/though of as dumb or not valued for my mind, but on the flip side there are personal persuits I enjoy doing in my alone time that I have no interest in abandoning. Things like computer programming, math proofs, gaming, writing and so on. And so far my general impression on there is I'll probably try to start doing more of the simple minded persona and leave my solo activities solo and thus kind of get the best of both worlds. Besides, its kinda hot to be treated one way even though I know I'm the other. Probably a good pride reduction which I certainly know I have too much one. And there I go, starting to talk about previous posts too much. Back onto this post.
So that youtube video really got me thinking because I was like 9/10 of those traits, and it made me start wondering how malleable I am. Don't get me wrong, I am very confident that I am more malleable then probably about 90-95% of potential mates anyone comes accross. I'm not sure I talked about that too much yet. Maybe a post for another time, but the summarize it is that there are very few fixed points about my goals and personality traits and thus I'm pretty adaptable to meeting the needs of otheres. Its why i've always been a good roommate to anyone and have always gotten along with all personality traits. Also when it comes to people I might eventually date, I usually try to feel out where they stand on things I'm not flexible on and if thats the case, end it early on. The best example of this is that I AM transitioning fully to female, so usually if a guy gives any hint of wanting me not to do the bottom surgery (next appointment with doctor in a two days by the way) then we wouldn't continue dating.
Back to the video though, I started wondering if those fixed points in my personality which the video kind of confirmed, I wonder it they would be things that hurt me. For example, the dumb/smart thing, if those are personality traits I naturally have and may not of been aware of, could I really change them if the person I end up with didn't like? And if I could would I want too? So I've been thinking about that the past few days and I've realized that those traits are largely either non issues, or naturally go into my already set goals. For example, having low social life and rather spend time alone persuing personal projects. That fits perfectly with what most men would want. From my observations, guys prefer their girls to have few outside friends, and my ability to do my own thing is a good backdrop for when the guy wants alone time. Also fits very well if I end up doing the housewife stuff as I would have personal growth things to do when done with the domestic stuff.
Another trait was highly empathetici to others which is certainly a feminine quality. I'm not going to make a retort to every trait in that video and in a lot of ways this was a post about my thoughts on the smart/dumb thing, but not from the raw intelligence point of view but from secondary traits because of that. And now I pause to think if I properly conveyed my thoughts without going through rewrites. This is a tangent my mind is on now, hehe. But at this point I dont feel like I conveyed my thoughts/goals well on the personality traits/intelligence/dumb girl thing, but I do like some of the other things I said, so this will probably be posted, if for no other reason to explain the irregularity in the posting timeline.
To make a final attempt on the personality trait thing. I doubt rather things like hypnotizing, iq reduction and stuff like that actually works, and if it did how willing I'd be to actually do it. But I'm super attracted to gender roles, things like male superiority, traditional expectations/stereotypes and so on. And I do like the idea of being valued for appearance/domestic/sexual/physical things way above things like my opinions/thoughts/capabilities and those will be the priorities I continue to persue both in my new life goals and relationship goals. I feel those solo projects I do on the side (right now heavily into a software project i'm passionate about) to the solo me, that most people will never know about, hehe.
Also on the lifestyle thing. It is really easy for a lot of people to read these things I write and think a lot of this is kink/fetish rather then actual lifestyle/24/7 type goals. Kind of like how some women wanting to be a housewife is what they want in life goals and not because of the fetish aspect of it. On the male superiority aspect, I kind of like the degrading aspect of going from indepdenent man to inferior woman and thus will the estrogen dumb me down a little bit?
disclaimer: I'm very much I live life the way I want, you live life the way you want. and neither of us push our views/wants/expectations on the other if not compatible. Kind of just go our own way. So if you dont like something I said, thats just me and my happiness and I would never expect others to follow/believe/want them.
Anyways, I say that because I notice that I haven't posted anything in a little over a week now even though I've written a few. This time I want to write about a youtube video I saw. I tried really hard to find it to link onto this article but there were too many videos similar to it but not it so I couldn't find it. THe title of the video was something like why intelligent people have fewer friends or traits x traits of intelligent people. The video really had me thinking because like 9 out of the 10 traits were things about me. Things like very few friends, no interest in normal drama/gossip, more into personal projects and things like that.
If you've read any number of my articles, and allow for spelling/grammar/structure errors, it is probably obvious at this point that I'm pretty intelligent. Hehe, so I know what some of you are thinking, my writing doesn't prove it. Keep in mind that, as I mentioned a few posts ago, I stopped fixing my grammar errors and allow myself to go on tangents more often now to help feminize/reduce the image of my intelligence which Is why I don't proof read any of this stuff before I post if I feel good about it afterwards. And in a way, I'm revisiting to dumb/smart thing.
To refresh that, I am super attracted to relationship dynamics of contrast and smart man/dumb woman, gender roles and the stuff like that. i've already written a lot about that so I'm not going to rehash all the reasons, but it is a conflict I deal with. Because I'm kind of attracted that way, super attracted to the idea of being treated/though of as dumb or not valued for my mind, but on the flip side there are personal persuits I enjoy doing in my alone time that I have no interest in abandoning. Things like computer programming, math proofs, gaming, writing and so on. And so far my general impression on there is I'll probably try to start doing more of the simple minded persona and leave my solo activities solo and thus kind of get the best of both worlds. Besides, its kinda hot to be treated one way even though I know I'm the other. Probably a good pride reduction which I certainly know I have too much one. And there I go, starting to talk about previous posts too much. Back onto this post.
So that youtube video really got me thinking because I was like 9/10 of those traits, and it made me start wondering how malleable I am. Don't get me wrong, I am very confident that I am more malleable then probably about 90-95% of potential mates anyone comes accross. I'm not sure I talked about that too much yet. Maybe a post for another time, but the summarize it is that there are very few fixed points about my goals and personality traits and thus I'm pretty adaptable to meeting the needs of otheres. Its why i've always been a good roommate to anyone and have always gotten along with all personality traits. Also when it comes to people I might eventually date, I usually try to feel out where they stand on things I'm not flexible on and if thats the case, end it early on. The best example of this is that I AM transitioning fully to female, so usually if a guy gives any hint of wanting me not to do the bottom surgery (next appointment with doctor in a two days by the way) then we wouldn't continue dating.
Back to the video though, I started wondering if those fixed points in my personality which the video kind of confirmed, I wonder it they would be things that hurt me. For example, the dumb/smart thing, if those are personality traits I naturally have and may not of been aware of, could I really change them if the person I end up with didn't like? And if I could would I want too? So I've been thinking about that the past few days and I've realized that those traits are largely either non issues, or naturally go into my already set goals. For example, having low social life and rather spend time alone persuing personal projects. That fits perfectly with what most men would want. From my observations, guys prefer their girls to have few outside friends, and my ability to do my own thing is a good backdrop for when the guy wants alone time. Also fits very well if I end up doing the housewife stuff as I would have personal growth things to do when done with the domestic stuff.
Another trait was highly empathetici to others which is certainly a feminine quality. I'm not going to make a retort to every trait in that video and in a lot of ways this was a post about my thoughts on the smart/dumb thing, but not from the raw intelligence point of view but from secondary traits because of that. And now I pause to think if I properly conveyed my thoughts without going through rewrites. This is a tangent my mind is on now, hehe. But at this point I dont feel like I conveyed my thoughts/goals well on the personality traits/intelligence/dumb girl thing, but I do like some of the other things I said, so this will probably be posted, if for no other reason to explain the irregularity in the posting timeline.
To make a final attempt on the personality trait thing. I doubt rather things like hypnotizing, iq reduction and stuff like that actually works, and if it did how willing I'd be to actually do it. But I'm super attracted to gender roles, things like male superiority, traditional expectations/stereotypes and so on. And I do like the idea of being valued for appearance/domestic/sexual/physical things way above things like my opinions/thoughts/capabilities and those will be the priorities I continue to persue both in my new life goals and relationship goals. I feel those solo projects I do on the side (right now heavily into a software project i'm passionate about) to the solo me, that most people will never know about, hehe.
Also on the lifestyle thing. It is really easy for a lot of people to read these things I write and think a lot of this is kink/fetish rather then actual lifestyle/24/7 type goals. Kind of like how some women wanting to be a housewife is what they want in life goals and not because of the fetish aspect of it. On the male superiority aspect, I kind of like the degrading aspect of going from indepdenent man to inferior woman and thus will the estrogen dumb me down a little bit?
disclaimer: I'm very much I live life the way I want, you live life the way you want. and neither of us push our views/wants/expectations on the other if not compatible. Kind of just go our own way. So if you dont like something I said, thats just me and my happiness and I would never expect others to follow/believe/want them.
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