Male Ego
In many ways I'm pretty malleable. Yes there are some things that I do plan to keep about myself and would be "hard limits" but compared to most people and most women, I am incredibly malleable. I'm very easy going and have been able to live with successfully many different type of people. Furthermore, I have many things going for my for my feminization. There is one thing that I already know is going to be one of the hardest things for me to overcome and do I expect it to take a few years to be honest. That is my male ego.
Now don't get me wrong. Though I see the "bratty" thing might be potentially fun for some guys, I'm not bratty in any sense. I genuinely prefer being good, doing my best, and having people like me. I might of mentioned before that I really do respond well to male approval which is kind of a recent discovery. But I know that for my entire life pretending to be a guy and thus very protective of keeping that facade going, has me with a bigger male ego then I should have. Furthermore, I should never of had one to begin with considering my failure as a guy. So I know any guy who is with me will have to have some patience with me as I break out of that habit.
So let me give an example. When someone comes up to me to help me with something I know how to do it annoys me a little bit. Or when I mess up and notice where I messed up and someone comes to show me how I'm wrong, it annoys me. When someone invades my personal space, it annoys me. Lots of things that would annoy a real man annoy me a little bit. Now a lot of this has to do with the fact that I've been trying very hard for most of my life to pull off pretending to be a guy and thus its something I overly respond to and is my most ingrained habit.
Before continuing I should point out that this is not actually a problem for any potential relationship I get into. I'm really good an not acting out on it. The worst case that I ever do is stay quiete while something is happening, but I don't shout, correct the other person or anything a real guy would do in those situations. Hehe, theres another example, But anyways, I just wanted to point that out.
So continueing where I left off, so becoming more humble, accepting of female inferiority, thankful for guidance and all of that are going to be one of the harder things for me to embrace and roll with. This is one of the many reasons I've also started embracing the humiliation/degrading relationship dynamic and given even more serious thought into the simple minded goal. It is one of those situation where when life gives you lemons, make lemonade. Take what could be my worst quality and turn it into a positive.
So that might give a reason why its not a requirement but a plus for me to be attracted to guys who either think its degrading for me to go from man to female, or is into the humiliation aspect of women being the weaker sex. When what could potentially be the most annoying thing about me (once again I don't actually overreact) is something the guy enjoys, it really makes the relationship more solid for life long. So for example, I'm very used to my personal space and it does annoy me when someone gets close to me. Naturally guys like doing things like grabbing their girl, slapping her butt and so on. So a guy who likes that that might annoy me, even if I try to hide it, will do two things. One probably do it more often, which is good for helping me get over it. And two enjoy making a bigger deal out of it to highlight my proper role in life.
So that was a physical example. The mental thing goes as well, rather it is mansplaining, helping do trivial things, assume my less capable and so on. As I mentoined earlier, one of the reasons its a bonus because make a more solid relationship is it would also help me break out of that bad habit and mentality faster.
Now don't get me wrong. Though I see the "bratty" thing might be potentially fun for some guys, I'm not bratty in any sense. I genuinely prefer being good, doing my best, and having people like me. I might of mentioned before that I really do respond well to male approval which is kind of a recent discovery. But I know that for my entire life pretending to be a guy and thus very protective of keeping that facade going, has me with a bigger male ego then I should have. Furthermore, I should never of had one to begin with considering my failure as a guy. So I know any guy who is with me will have to have some patience with me as I break out of that habit.
So let me give an example. When someone comes up to me to help me with something I know how to do it annoys me a little bit. Or when I mess up and notice where I messed up and someone comes to show me how I'm wrong, it annoys me. When someone invades my personal space, it annoys me. Lots of things that would annoy a real man annoy me a little bit. Now a lot of this has to do with the fact that I've been trying very hard for most of my life to pull off pretending to be a guy and thus its something I overly respond to and is my most ingrained habit.
Before continuing I should point out that this is not actually a problem for any potential relationship I get into. I'm really good an not acting out on it. The worst case that I ever do is stay quiete while something is happening, but I don't shout, correct the other person or anything a real guy would do in those situations. Hehe, theres another example, But anyways, I just wanted to point that out.
So continueing where I left off, so becoming more humble, accepting of female inferiority, thankful for guidance and all of that are going to be one of the harder things for me to embrace and roll with. This is one of the many reasons I've also started embracing the humiliation/degrading relationship dynamic and given even more serious thought into the simple minded goal. It is one of those situation where when life gives you lemons, make lemonade. Take what could be my worst quality and turn it into a positive.
So that might give a reason why its not a requirement but a plus for me to be attracted to guys who either think its degrading for me to go from man to female, or is into the humiliation aspect of women being the weaker sex. When what could potentially be the most annoying thing about me (once again I don't actually overreact) is something the guy enjoys, it really makes the relationship more solid for life long. So for example, I'm very used to my personal space and it does annoy me when someone gets close to me. Naturally guys like doing things like grabbing their girl, slapping her butt and so on. So a guy who likes that that might annoy me, even if I try to hide it, will do two things. One probably do it more often, which is good for helping me get over it. And two enjoy making a bigger deal out of it to highlight my proper role in life.
So that was a physical example. The mental thing goes as well, rather it is mansplaining, helping do trivial things, assume my less capable and so on. As I mentoined earlier, one of the reasons its a bonus because make a more solid relationship is it would also help me break out of that bad habit and mentality faster.
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