More estrogen, Oh My!
Had my next doctor appointment today. My estrogen intake has now doubled up to 4mg and I'm still doing the 100mg of testosterone blocker with it. My next appointment will be a month from now where I"m supposed to go up to 6mg and then thats when we do a holding pattern for about 2 months to see how well my body is reacting on how the dosage needs to be impacted. Its kind of funny, as now that I've been in several times, I can see many things they do to stop their patients from making rash decisions, hehe. They ask a lot of questions about my feelings and I know some of that is about the effects of the hormones, but a lot of it is also to see if I have second doubts or anything depression related. They also make the subscriptions very inflexible. FOr example, if I was to take myself up to 6mg right now before next month I would run out.
I feel and I do want to emphasize the feel that they are going a little bit slower then neccessary, but given how many people dont really know what they want and the permanance of all of this, I totally understand. I also greatly care about my health. I mean I really care about my health so I do like that things are being done professionally and not kind of the backdoor stuff that happens by ordering this stuff via internet or going to other countries. Will probably cost more money this way, but my health should hopefully be optimized because of it.
Speaking of which, my diet and lifestyle and exercise plan has been going well. I did another taking all my measurements and pictures today and the progress is still going steadily with the weight loss starting to speed up again. I'm still on track with my summer goal of living female 24/7. Though I'm going to have to work on my exercise regime a little bit since getting good proprotions through exercise can speed up a little bit. I know hormones will do a lot of that, but since cis women have issues with the proportions they want, i'm not going to be lazy on that front.
I also made my first appointment with a voice coach who I will see in two weeks. When I was making the appointment they were very impressed how how my voice was normally right off the bat which helps comfirm my theory that this will be one of the easier things for me to master. Yes it might of been a sales pitch, but seeing as I've always thought my voice is unixsex and I do get called 'mam' sometimes over the phone, I do believe her in this case.
What is a little entertaining and this is one of the ways I'm more unique I feel in this case, is everyone keeps asking my my preffered name and gender for paperwork and interactions and I keep saying my male one. I'll change all of that this summer, but as I tell them, I dont like pretending. The very fact that someone has to ask me that, makes me feel like i'm pretending. I know they have to, but this is something I want lifestyle wise and to actually be my life. Anything less then that will make me feel like i'm lying, pretending or fake. Thats how I know when I'll switch to living female full time. When it starts getting harder to pretend to be a boy then it is to be a girl, or where people assume the female before the male, thats when I'll start going full time female.
So far physically, I dont really see any changes with the hormones. I think most of that is because I already had naturally female skin, the empathetic emotions and such so the early things I would see i kind of already had. That said, when I did a fast glimpse in teh mirrror a few days ago I think I saw some more feminine features in my face, though that could just be my head. Thats the thing that kinda sucks, because it goes so slowly, I probably wont see a lot of the changes till it shocks me.
Anyways, things are still on track with my goals of summer, my next doctors appointment is next month where i go up to a possible max dosage, but might be the step before that. Seeing a voice coach and more facial hair laser removal treatment in two weeks. And lifestyle/diet/exercise is currentky on track. So on the feminization goals, things are going good!
July 2019 - Started facial hair removal.
September 2019 - Exercise of 10-14 hours a week with a cardio/glutes/abs focus.
November 2019 - Changed diet to low calorie mostly healthy..
November 2019 - Started spironolactone testosterone blocker.
December 2019- Started estrogen and doubled testosterone block dosage.
January 2020 - Next Appointment to check progress and double estrogen dosage.
January 2020 (Next Step) - Start voice training with professional.
I feel and I do want to emphasize the feel that they are going a little bit slower then neccessary, but given how many people dont really know what they want and the permanance of all of this, I totally understand. I also greatly care about my health. I mean I really care about my health so I do like that things are being done professionally and not kind of the backdoor stuff that happens by ordering this stuff via internet or going to other countries. Will probably cost more money this way, but my health should hopefully be optimized because of it.
Speaking of which, my diet and lifestyle and exercise plan has been going well. I did another taking all my measurements and pictures today and the progress is still going steadily with the weight loss starting to speed up again. I'm still on track with my summer goal of living female 24/7. Though I'm going to have to work on my exercise regime a little bit since getting good proprotions through exercise can speed up a little bit. I know hormones will do a lot of that, but since cis women have issues with the proportions they want, i'm not going to be lazy on that front.
I also made my first appointment with a voice coach who I will see in two weeks. When I was making the appointment they were very impressed how how my voice was normally right off the bat which helps comfirm my theory that this will be one of the easier things for me to master. Yes it might of been a sales pitch, but seeing as I've always thought my voice is unixsex and I do get called 'mam' sometimes over the phone, I do believe her in this case.
What is a little entertaining and this is one of the ways I'm more unique I feel in this case, is everyone keeps asking my my preffered name and gender for paperwork and interactions and I keep saying my male one. I'll change all of that this summer, but as I tell them, I dont like pretending. The very fact that someone has to ask me that, makes me feel like i'm pretending. I know they have to, but this is something I want lifestyle wise and to actually be my life. Anything less then that will make me feel like i'm lying, pretending or fake. Thats how I know when I'll switch to living female full time. When it starts getting harder to pretend to be a boy then it is to be a girl, or where people assume the female before the male, thats when I'll start going full time female.
So far physically, I dont really see any changes with the hormones. I think most of that is because I already had naturally female skin, the empathetic emotions and such so the early things I would see i kind of already had. That said, when I did a fast glimpse in teh mirrror a few days ago I think I saw some more feminine features in my face, though that could just be my head. Thats the thing that kinda sucks, because it goes so slowly, I probably wont see a lot of the changes till it shocks me.
Anyways, things are still on track with my goals of summer, my next doctors appointment is next month where i go up to a possible max dosage, but might be the step before that. Seeing a voice coach and more facial hair laser removal treatment in two weeks. And lifestyle/diet/exercise is currentky on track. So on the feminization goals, things are going good!
July 2019 - Started facial hair removal.
September 2019 - Exercise of 10-14 hours a week with a cardio/glutes/abs focus.
November 2019 - Changed diet to low calorie mostly healthy..
November 2019 - Started spironolactone testosterone blocker.
December 2019- Started estrogen and doubled testosterone block dosage.
January 2020 - Next Appointment to check progress and double estrogen dosage.
January 2020 (Next Step) - Start voice training with professional.
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