Muscle Recomposition Sucks!
So for those who do not know, Muscle Recomposition is when you are gaining muscle at the same time you are losing fat. This ends up being a huge deterrent to many people trying to lose weight, because when they step on the scale they see themselves gaining weight even though they've been working out and maybe dieting as well. This is because muscle actually weights more than fat. Thus any losing weight plan that has a strong component of exercise, will run into this issue. Now I should point out that I am losing weight every week, but not as much as I would like to feel good.
So I'm starting off over weight. The past year or so I've been in the worst shape of my life because of just a punch of curve balls life has thrown at me. Two years ago I essentially lost most of my family and friends due to various reasons, was in a stand still in my career despite my best efforts, and in debt for the first time in my life due to said family issues and such. Then I moved a year ago to start my life from scratch and my original attempt to start my feminization somewhere new. The location I moved to was one of the worst places in my life. It was impossible to get an appointment, my work environment was incredibly hostile, and everyone I encountered was tribalistic. Those are all excuses, and it is still all my fault, but I essentially stressed ate more than I should of, even though I was still regularily working out.
Anywho, all of those issues are no longer problems. I moved to my current location this past summer and it is one of the best moves I've made. I have a great work environment, was able to easily (reasonably so) to find a doctor and start the hormone treatments. Furthermore I'm financially secure and actually in one of the best finanical shapes of my life now because I was taking care of that over the last two years. I'm certainly no stranger to working extra hours, hehe. With all of that stuff going well I've been able to slowly improve both my diet and exercise regime since I moved here. With starting hormones over a month ago, I really started taking my diet and exercise seriously. I've changed it to focus more on cardio with weights only targeting glutes and abs. I've been watching my diet/calorie intake/nutrition and have been improving it every week. When it comes to the food and exercise, I'm probably on one of the healthiest but also most aggressive get into shape plans possible. I'm talking like one step below "biggest loser" levels if you remember that show.
Wow, thats a lot of preamble to get to the point of this blog entry. Its actually kind of a bad or good habit I've always had. Because I've realized so many misunderstandings is because of working from different information, I'm used to preconditioning everything I talk about to make sure we're on common lines of thoughts. Furthermore, because I know being talkative is naturally more of a femal personality thing, I've been letting go on that more and more, hehe. Anyways, the final thing to set the stage is that I'm a data/math person in the sense that I record every stat when I can and enjoy doing it. So besides writing down every day my calorie, nutrient, exercise intake I also record my weight every week and take all of my body measurements (chest, underbust, neck, waist, hips, thighs, etc..) along with a picture profile of myself every other week. This allows me to make adjustments to accomplish my goals. That goal being to be able to go female 24/7 this summer (2020) with hopefully 70% passability.
Yes that is kind of an aggressive goal. I'm a big fan of the quote: "Aim for the moon, even if you fail, you'll land among the stars." That goal isn't choses arbiratrily though. The summer is when I have the most free time from work/social committments. That time frame is also when the muscle loss, fat redistribution and breast growth should be noticeable. And finally doing a healthy weight loss plan (though aggressive) I should be close to ideal female body weight by then.
Wow, got to love that tangent there about why the goal is set there and all of that. Anyways, back to the original point of this blog entry! The last two weeks my weight loss as slowed down even though I eat less, eat healthier, exercise longer and exercise better every week. I know this is muscle Recomposition because my measurements (chest, waist, etc) is still going down on track for my summer goal, the pictures I've taken shows my improving when side by side, but the weight measurement is slowing down! Isn't it funny how I have like 8 data points, and the only one that seemst o matter physchology speaking is the weight one? lol. I know this is true for pretty much anyone. I also know its muscle recomposition because my athletic ability has been improving and the hormones are still about 2 months away before I should start noticing muscle loss.
Anyways, the main point of this blog entry was just to rant and rave about my annoyance on the weight loss slowing down and the muscle recomposition. The thing that really annoys me is that I extend the data out to predict where I will be and I'm slowly moving that ideal weight to the end of summer whereas it started at the beginning of summer. I'm also annoyed because as I get closer to the ideal body weight for a woman my height, it is natural for weight loss to slow down (less mass to lose). I already accounted for that in my projections I mentioned earlier.
So now I get to the positive aspects I tell myself to make me feel better. Luckily these also happen to be the truth. The Muscle growth will slow down at some point which means the weight loss will increase again. Furthermore, more muscles mean higher matabolism which also increases weight/fat loss. Furthermore, with the hormones working to decrease muscle mass sometimes 2-5 months from now, that will be weight loss that happens faster (because muscle weights more than fat). So this is probably just a physcological slow spot. Especially considering that my body measurements are still going down on track and the pictures show improvement as well. I'm also about two weeks away from having to buy some temporary clothes since the stuff I have is starting to get too baggy. And yet despite me rationally knowing all of this, I'm going to be staring at my spreadsheet of numbers for probably at least 1-2 hours in the coming week till my next friday measurment reads, lol. Oh, also my next doctors appointment is Friday, so my estrogen dosage should be getting doubles in a little under a week :)
So I'm starting off over weight. The past year or so I've been in the worst shape of my life because of just a punch of curve balls life has thrown at me. Two years ago I essentially lost most of my family and friends due to various reasons, was in a stand still in my career despite my best efforts, and in debt for the first time in my life due to said family issues and such. Then I moved a year ago to start my life from scratch and my original attempt to start my feminization somewhere new. The location I moved to was one of the worst places in my life. It was impossible to get an appointment, my work environment was incredibly hostile, and everyone I encountered was tribalistic. Those are all excuses, and it is still all my fault, but I essentially stressed ate more than I should of, even though I was still regularily working out.
Anywho, all of those issues are no longer problems. I moved to my current location this past summer and it is one of the best moves I've made. I have a great work environment, was able to easily (reasonably so) to find a doctor and start the hormone treatments. Furthermore I'm financially secure and actually in one of the best finanical shapes of my life now because I was taking care of that over the last two years. I'm certainly no stranger to working extra hours, hehe. With all of that stuff going well I've been able to slowly improve both my diet and exercise regime since I moved here. With starting hormones over a month ago, I really started taking my diet and exercise seriously. I've changed it to focus more on cardio with weights only targeting glutes and abs. I've been watching my diet/calorie intake/nutrition and have been improving it every week. When it comes to the food and exercise, I'm probably on one of the healthiest but also most aggressive get into shape plans possible. I'm talking like one step below "biggest loser" levels if you remember that show.
Wow, thats a lot of preamble to get to the point of this blog entry. Its actually kind of a bad or good habit I've always had. Because I've realized so many misunderstandings is because of working from different information, I'm used to preconditioning everything I talk about to make sure we're on common lines of thoughts. Furthermore, because I know being talkative is naturally more of a femal personality thing, I've been letting go on that more and more, hehe. Anyways, the final thing to set the stage is that I'm a data/math person in the sense that I record every stat when I can and enjoy doing it. So besides writing down every day my calorie, nutrient, exercise intake I also record my weight every week and take all of my body measurements (chest, underbust, neck, waist, hips, thighs, etc..) along with a picture profile of myself every other week. This allows me to make adjustments to accomplish my goals. That goal being to be able to go female 24/7 this summer (2020) with hopefully 70% passability.
Yes that is kind of an aggressive goal. I'm a big fan of the quote: "Aim for the moon, even if you fail, you'll land among the stars." That goal isn't choses arbiratrily though. The summer is when I have the most free time from work/social committments. That time frame is also when the muscle loss, fat redistribution and breast growth should be noticeable. And finally doing a healthy weight loss plan (though aggressive) I should be close to ideal female body weight by then.
Wow, got to love that tangent there about why the goal is set there and all of that. Anyways, back to the original point of this blog entry! The last two weeks my weight loss as slowed down even though I eat less, eat healthier, exercise longer and exercise better every week. I know this is muscle Recomposition because my measurements (chest, waist, etc) is still going down on track for my summer goal, the pictures I've taken shows my improving when side by side, but the weight measurement is slowing down! Isn't it funny how I have like 8 data points, and the only one that seemst o matter physchology speaking is the weight one? lol. I know this is true for pretty much anyone. I also know its muscle recomposition because my athletic ability has been improving and the hormones are still about 2 months away before I should start noticing muscle loss.
Anyways, the main point of this blog entry was just to rant and rave about my annoyance on the weight loss slowing down and the muscle recomposition. The thing that really annoys me is that I extend the data out to predict where I will be and I'm slowly moving that ideal weight to the end of summer whereas it started at the beginning of summer. I'm also annoyed because as I get closer to the ideal body weight for a woman my height, it is natural for weight loss to slow down (less mass to lose). I already accounted for that in my projections I mentioned earlier.
So now I get to the positive aspects I tell myself to make me feel better. Luckily these also happen to be the truth. The Muscle growth will slow down at some point which means the weight loss will increase again. Furthermore, more muscles mean higher matabolism which also increases weight/fat loss. Furthermore, with the hormones working to decrease muscle mass sometimes 2-5 months from now, that will be weight loss that happens faster (because muscle weights more than fat). So this is probably just a physcological slow spot. Especially considering that my body measurements are still going down on track and the pictures show improvement as well. I'm also about two weeks away from having to buy some temporary clothes since the stuff I have is starting to get too baggy. And yet despite me rationally knowing all of this, I'm going to be staring at my spreadsheet of numbers for probably at least 1-2 hours in the coming week till my next friday measurment reads, lol. Oh, also my next doctors appointment is Friday, so my estrogen dosage should be getting doubles in a little under a week :)
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