Losing Male Privilege!!!
So male privilege and white privilege and those terms and thrown around a lot in politics. I'm not going to dwell on the politics of any of it at all, but male privilege as a term fits in perfectly well with what this entree is about and kind of what this blog's theme is in a way, lol. One things I've seen on the politics side of things is how differents sides will define terms differently to be favorable towards there point of view. The best neutral unbiased term I've heard to define what privilege means is:
Male Privilege - Things that women HAVE to go through that men never do.
Once, again, I'm not talking about the politics here or anything. Instead I want to talk about the male privilege I'm losing from my feminization. The past week or 2 I've started noticing small changes I've made without realizing with a big one hitting me recently that kindled by thought on this. I'm slowly losing my male privilege. I'll start with a few simple ones first.
So with me fully going the female route, many things about my lifestyle have changed. One of those is myself knowing that a lot of my worth is not derived from how attractive I am. Maybe the most important actually. So I exercise around 10-14 hours a week! Thats averaged to about 2 hours a day. Furthermore, I'm counting calories, fats, carbs, sugar and other things in my diet which has me enjoying food a lot less then I used too. All of this because I know my appearance is more important then myself enjoying tasties or usuing my time towards personal projects/hobbies and so on. So in this case, male privilege I've lost is some freedom of my time and some enjoyment of one of life's only pleasures. The good news though is I'm probably living the healthiest lifestyle I ever have. :)
You know something that is starting to become a nuissance several times a day? My hair! Its long enough now that if I'm doing any sort of physical activity that requires reasomable movement, I need to put it into a ponytail. Its getting in my mouth more and more. Furthermore, I have to move it out of my face often when I'm sleeping. There is also the hair care. My showers are longer, I have to spend time every day, several times a day brushing it. I've had to learn more about hair care. I haven't even started styling it yet and its already taking up time!
This one is a little more trivial, and barely counts into this blog, but its a little bit about my phyche changes. I used to spend a lot of time thinking things like projects I want to do, my future goals, career advancement, games/hobbies I'm doing, that kind of thing. I realized driving to work this morning, that I probably spend close to half my time thinking about my appearance, what I need to do in feminizing, wondering what guys would want and that stuff. Now admittedly some of it is planning, but its planning on more feminine things and another time drain I'm now experiencing. For example, this morning I spent a lot of time thinking of a healthy way to try to squeeze out an extra pound of weight loss a week. Probably about 30 minutes on just that.
So I saved the best for last. And this is the big one that made me one think of burdens I'll now have as a girl, but more importantnly that I'm losing male privilege without even thinking about it. Last week when I was on the treadmill, my breast started hurting from bouncing up and down. This means that the hormones are finally starting ti impact my breast development. (I still dont see anything yet, its just starting). It made it harder for me to run, and I conteplated stopping the run for that day and a few of the following days for that matter. I find myself having to flex my chest to decrease movment while running or sneaking holding it in place with my arms a little bit while at the gym. Once again, there is no actual "growth" yet so I dont have any cups. But they are tender. When I touch my nipples now with a little pressure I feel it hurt a little bit.
So what did I have to do two days ago, not because I want to, but because I have too? I had to get a sports bra! Not for any eagerness to dress female, but because I need it to keep exercising without hurting! So this is the biggest example of loss of male privilege. That being extra support now being required and reduced physical capability because of the impact of breast. And they haven't even starting getting bigger yet. I may of underestimated the burden of having breast, hehe. But breast is more for men's enjoyment then actual comfort.
So all of this has started making me wonder how much more male privilege I'll be losing over the next few months and the next few years. Both expected and unexpect4ed. Both societal and choice and so on.
Male Privilege - Things that women HAVE to go through that men never do.
Once, again, I'm not talking about the politics here or anything. Instead I want to talk about the male privilege I'm losing from my feminization. The past week or 2 I've started noticing small changes I've made without realizing with a big one hitting me recently that kindled by thought on this. I'm slowly losing my male privilege. I'll start with a few simple ones first.
So with me fully going the female route, many things about my lifestyle have changed. One of those is myself knowing that a lot of my worth is not derived from how attractive I am. Maybe the most important actually. So I exercise around 10-14 hours a week! Thats averaged to about 2 hours a day. Furthermore, I'm counting calories, fats, carbs, sugar and other things in my diet which has me enjoying food a lot less then I used too. All of this because I know my appearance is more important then myself enjoying tasties or usuing my time towards personal projects/hobbies and so on. So in this case, male privilege I've lost is some freedom of my time and some enjoyment of one of life's only pleasures. The good news though is I'm probably living the healthiest lifestyle I ever have. :)
You know something that is starting to become a nuissance several times a day? My hair! Its long enough now that if I'm doing any sort of physical activity that requires reasomable movement, I need to put it into a ponytail. Its getting in my mouth more and more. Furthermore, I have to move it out of my face often when I'm sleeping. There is also the hair care. My showers are longer, I have to spend time every day, several times a day brushing it. I've had to learn more about hair care. I haven't even started styling it yet and its already taking up time!
This one is a little more trivial, and barely counts into this blog, but its a little bit about my phyche changes. I used to spend a lot of time thinking things like projects I want to do, my future goals, career advancement, games/hobbies I'm doing, that kind of thing. I realized driving to work this morning, that I probably spend close to half my time thinking about my appearance, what I need to do in feminizing, wondering what guys would want and that stuff. Now admittedly some of it is planning, but its planning on more feminine things and another time drain I'm now experiencing. For example, this morning I spent a lot of time thinking of a healthy way to try to squeeze out an extra pound of weight loss a week. Probably about 30 minutes on just that.
So I saved the best for last. And this is the big one that made me one think of burdens I'll now have as a girl, but more importantnly that I'm losing male privilege without even thinking about it. Last week when I was on the treadmill, my breast started hurting from bouncing up and down. This means that the hormones are finally starting ti impact my breast development. (I still dont see anything yet, its just starting). It made it harder for me to run, and I conteplated stopping the run for that day and a few of the following days for that matter. I find myself having to flex my chest to decrease movment while running or sneaking holding it in place with my arms a little bit while at the gym. Once again, there is no actual "growth" yet so I dont have any cups. But they are tender. When I touch my nipples now with a little pressure I feel it hurt a little bit.
So what did I have to do two days ago, not because I want to, but because I have too? I had to get a sports bra! Not for any eagerness to dress female, but because I need it to keep exercising without hurting! So this is the biggest example of loss of male privilege. That being extra support now being required and reduced physical capability because of the impact of breast. And they haven't even starting getting bigger yet. I may of underestimated the burden of having breast, hehe. But breast is more for men's enjoyment then actual comfort.
So all of this has started making me wonder how much more male privilege I'll be losing over the next few months and the next few years. Both expected and unexpect4ed. Both societal and choice and so on.
PS, I'm white, but felt it applies to me and what this post is about.
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