Finally some wins!
There is a statistics concept that you know something is random if things happen in clusters. The idea is if things are evenly spaced out, its not really random since it is predictable. Random means you have gaps on an event and then an event happening a bunch of times. In sciences the same thing is true. Things rarely happen slowly over time, but happen in rapid succession in short periods of time, followed by slow progress again.
So why do I start with this, because I've been having very slow progress for about 3-4 weeks now and many real life set backs. Now to qualify this, I dont mean failures as much as things just making life more difficult. For example, it was emotionally tough to have the discussion with my employer about rather I'll be looking for a new job or not. I had some personal things happen that really pushed my emotional core about 3 weeks ago which I won't go into detail about. My progression weight wise has been slower then I would of liked which only slowed down because of how hard it was to stay motivated during this time.
Now on that last part, let me point out that I HAVE still been making progress. Just way slower then I would of liked. I knew starting the process that I would have some durations during my transition where I wont be making steady progress and I resolved myself that I would be happy in those cases if I can go very slow or stay flat. Which has happened. Thats also one of the reasons I set aggressive goals for myself, so that when I do have set backs, i'd still be making progress.
Well with the bad gap of my transition startinting 3-4 weeks ago, it has finally ended with yet another string of victories for me. :) And this is one reason I'm writing a second blog so close to the last one (which I should of posted a few days before that but didn't for some reason.
The first started about midday when I finally got a response from my job (which I expected to not be for another two weeks). For the most part I have waay more support then I could of expected, which is great considering I like the job. If I saw even the hint of not wanting me, I would of quit. So its really nice that I dont have to work towards new careers and stuff like that. And to actually have support rather then just tolerance in that regard.
Then when I got home, I did my some normal voice training and I think I actually hit my feminine/passable voice and have a reasonable idea of how to replicate it! I wanted to confirm it, so I sent a voice clip to my voice coach, and she confirmed I was right. So now not only am I there, but I finally have a voice sample for me to work on immitating. Chances are, my voice will be 99% passable within a month from now well before my goal of beginning of summer. This is also great because that makes it even more realistic for it to also be improved to being attractive which is now way more likely.
So with two solid victories behind me, I now have momentum again! :) As with the cluster things I was talking about earlier starting this 'slump' of mine, I now have a cluser giving me momentum and I feel very strongly that my progress well once again pick up to the former pacing, maybe even a little better. :) So I'm pretty happy today with those two victories. :)
So why do I start with this, because I've been having very slow progress for about 3-4 weeks now and many real life set backs. Now to qualify this, I dont mean failures as much as things just making life more difficult. For example, it was emotionally tough to have the discussion with my employer about rather I'll be looking for a new job or not. I had some personal things happen that really pushed my emotional core about 3 weeks ago which I won't go into detail about. My progression weight wise has been slower then I would of liked which only slowed down because of how hard it was to stay motivated during this time.
Now on that last part, let me point out that I HAVE still been making progress. Just way slower then I would of liked. I knew starting the process that I would have some durations during my transition where I wont be making steady progress and I resolved myself that I would be happy in those cases if I can go very slow or stay flat. Which has happened. Thats also one of the reasons I set aggressive goals for myself, so that when I do have set backs, i'd still be making progress.
Well with the bad gap of my transition startinting 3-4 weeks ago, it has finally ended with yet another string of victories for me. :) And this is one reason I'm writing a second blog so close to the last one (which I should of posted a few days before that but didn't for some reason.
The first started about midday when I finally got a response from my job (which I expected to not be for another two weeks). For the most part I have waay more support then I could of expected, which is great considering I like the job. If I saw even the hint of not wanting me, I would of quit. So its really nice that I dont have to work towards new careers and stuff like that. And to actually have support rather then just tolerance in that regard.
Then when I got home, I did my some normal voice training and I think I actually hit my feminine/passable voice and have a reasonable idea of how to replicate it! I wanted to confirm it, so I sent a voice clip to my voice coach, and she confirmed I was right. So now not only am I there, but I finally have a voice sample for me to work on immitating. Chances are, my voice will be 99% passable within a month from now well before my goal of beginning of summer. This is also great because that makes it even more realistic for it to also be improved to being attractive which is now way more likely.
So with two solid victories behind me, I now have momentum again! :) As with the cluster things I was talking about earlier starting this 'slump' of mine, I now have a cluser giving me momentum and I feel very strongly that my progress well once again pick up to the former pacing, maybe even a little better. :) So I'm pretty happy today with those two victories. :)
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