On track, slowing down..
I had my most recent check up with the doctor on the hormone progression. This was my last appointment till 6 months from now that that the medical changes on me is stabilizing for the time being. They took my bloodwork to make sure everything is where it should be, should have the results on that in a few days, but the expectation is that things will continue as they have been on that front. I'm actually 1 month away from when I should be beginning to see the effects of the hormones and I already have from the smaller dosages, so I certainly can't complain.
In fact, I really can't complain about the progress at all. Though I'm a horrible judge on things, especially on self evaluation, I do feel confident that I see my face starting to feminize, my breast I believe are developing and most recently I think my thighs are starting to take a more feminine shape. If things go as plan, all of hte beginning effects of hormones should be in play within the next 4 months which would put me at the end of summer which was my original goal for switching from living male most of the time to living female most of the time.
My goal on that has always been to make a big switch on that when it starts becoming easier to pass as a woman then as a man and that is still the goal. As I mentioned in other postings, I really hate pretending and that is one of the reasons for it. Plus the whole process feels more 'natural' if I make changes as the situation dictates. That said, between the covid-19, and other recent events, I'll most likely have to move my goal of going to female 24/7 from by end of summer to by end of September or October which I'll talk about in a moment. Still trying to figure out which is the more ambitious but doaable goal between them. I'm a little upset over it, but on the flip side, with me seeing solid progress and being objective, from where I began in November to where I am now, its going pretty well. Just gotta keep health in mind and doing things for long lasting good results if it does cost a little speed.
So for some of the reasons. The main reason and the most recent is I was pushing myself to hard. When I talked to the doctor the other day, it was made pretty clear taht I'm exercising too much, which is believable. When I get a little stressed exercise or eating are usually my go to's. Exercise is a little easier for me to force myself to do, so the past few weeks I was exercising a few hours in teh morning and the evening so I would maintain some progress which I have. I wanted to move to the higher population city when I start going female 24/7, which is still my goal because I live in a very small population area right now. Well with the pandemic going on, I dont want to move to a big city to quickly, lol. So will want to wait for a few months after it ends. And then as I hinted at or mentioned earlier, i dont remember if I actually posted those blogs or left it as therapetic writings, but the huge life road bumps I hate the past few months did slow me down already. I dont really trust my own opinion on things so I usually run with the rule of three, and that now makes three things that dictates moving back my deadline a few months. THe good news is it has reduced some of my stress now that I have a little more time for that goal again. Wich is certainly a good thing for a higher immune system.
As the graphic below shows though, still making progress and I should still be going female full time before I hit the year mark of starting which is certainly exciting! I'm also slowly gathering the paper work including the doctors signature to change my legal documents to female. That was another delay with so many government things being closed. Chances are once they open up and with the back log I'm looking at around a 4-6 month turn around to get all of that done. :(
To end on a more positive note. Despite all those recent set backs, I am continuing to make progress. As for the first time, I'm feeling confident with my progress that I should be able to hit my feminizing goals. Considering from where I began, and what I look like now, I'm not passable yet, but I'm certainly seeing it now and starting to see the potential to being attractive as well! Height really is going to be my only handicap its looking like. Well I'm sure I'll hit another one as I get closer and see what my 'problem areas' are appearance wise, but thats part for the course. It'll be nice to move more towards sculpting then feminizing after this summer!
Oh, small side note on the graphic below. I did mention that I hit road bumps which slowed me down the last 2 months. But also I've been working towards the weight loss based on percentages, the that progress will naturally slow down as I get closer to the goal weight.
Update 3 days later: Got a phone call from doctor. Bloodwork came back that my estrogen level and testorone levels is really good for an early 20's woman now. My Testostrone is actually a ltitle lower then it should be which confirms that I've always been low on that, but going good.
July 2019 - Started facial hair removal.
September 2019 - Exercise of 10-14 hours a week with a cardio/glutes/abs focus.
November 2019 - Changed diet to low calorie mostly healthy foods.
November 2019 - Started spironolactone testosterone blocker.
December 2019- Started estrogen and doubled testosterone block dosage.
January 2020 - Appointment to check progress and double estrogen dosage.
January 2020 - Start voice training with professional.
February 2020 - Appointment to check progress and increase estrogen to max dosage. Doubled ant- testosterone.
April 2020 - Appointment to check reaction to increased dosages. Still on track.
June 2020 - Start process of changing gender on all legal documents. (Delayed because of covid-19)
August 2020 - Move to new community/bigger city for better position to go female 24/7. (Delayed because of covid-19).
In fact, I really can't complain about the progress at all. Though I'm a horrible judge on things, especially on self evaluation, I do feel confident that I see my face starting to feminize, my breast I believe are developing and most recently I think my thighs are starting to take a more feminine shape. If things go as plan, all of hte beginning effects of hormones should be in play within the next 4 months which would put me at the end of summer which was my original goal for switching from living male most of the time to living female most of the time.
My goal on that has always been to make a big switch on that when it starts becoming easier to pass as a woman then as a man and that is still the goal. As I mentioned in other postings, I really hate pretending and that is one of the reasons for it. Plus the whole process feels more 'natural' if I make changes as the situation dictates. That said, between the covid-19, and other recent events, I'll most likely have to move my goal of going to female 24/7 from by end of summer to by end of September or October which I'll talk about in a moment. Still trying to figure out which is the more ambitious but doaable goal between them. I'm a little upset over it, but on the flip side, with me seeing solid progress and being objective, from where I began in November to where I am now, its going pretty well. Just gotta keep health in mind and doing things for long lasting good results if it does cost a little speed.
So for some of the reasons. The main reason and the most recent is I was pushing myself to hard. When I talked to the doctor the other day, it was made pretty clear taht I'm exercising too much, which is believable. When I get a little stressed exercise or eating are usually my go to's. Exercise is a little easier for me to force myself to do, so the past few weeks I was exercising a few hours in teh morning and the evening so I would maintain some progress which I have. I wanted to move to the higher population city when I start going female 24/7, which is still my goal because I live in a very small population area right now. Well with the pandemic going on, I dont want to move to a big city to quickly, lol. So will want to wait for a few months after it ends. And then as I hinted at or mentioned earlier, i dont remember if I actually posted those blogs or left it as therapetic writings, but the huge life road bumps I hate the past few months did slow me down already. I dont really trust my own opinion on things so I usually run with the rule of three, and that now makes three things that dictates moving back my deadline a few months. THe good news is it has reduced some of my stress now that I have a little more time for that goal again. Wich is certainly a good thing for a higher immune system.
As the graphic below shows though, still making progress and I should still be going female full time before I hit the year mark of starting which is certainly exciting! I'm also slowly gathering the paper work including the doctors signature to change my legal documents to female. That was another delay with so many government things being closed. Chances are once they open up and with the back log I'm looking at around a 4-6 month turn around to get all of that done. :(
To end on a more positive note. Despite all those recent set backs, I am continuing to make progress. As for the first time, I'm feeling confident with my progress that I should be able to hit my feminizing goals. Considering from where I began, and what I look like now, I'm not passable yet, but I'm certainly seeing it now and starting to see the potential to being attractive as well! Height really is going to be my only handicap its looking like. Well I'm sure I'll hit another one as I get closer and see what my 'problem areas' are appearance wise, but thats part for the course. It'll be nice to move more towards sculpting then feminizing after this summer!
Oh, small side note on the graphic below. I did mention that I hit road bumps which slowed me down the last 2 months. But also I've been working towards the weight loss based on percentages, the that progress will naturally slow down as I get closer to the goal weight.
Update 3 days later: Got a phone call from doctor. Bloodwork came back that my estrogen level and testorone levels is really good for an early 20's woman now. My Testostrone is actually a ltitle lower then it should be which confirms that I've always been low on that, but going good.
July 2019 - Started facial hair removal.
September 2019 - Exercise of 10-14 hours a week with a cardio/glutes/abs focus.
November 2019 - Changed diet to low calorie mostly healthy foods.
November 2019 - Started spironolactone testosterone blocker.
December 2019- Started estrogen and doubled testosterone block dosage.
January 2020 - Appointment to check progress and double estrogen dosage.
January 2020 - Start voice training with professional.
February 2020 - Appointment to check progress and increase estrogen to max dosage. Doubled ant- testosterone.
April 2020 - Appointment to check reaction to increased dosages. Still on track.
June 2020 - Start process of changing gender on all legal documents. (Delayed because of covid-19)
August 2020 - Move to new community/bigger city for better position to go female 24/7. (Delayed because of covid-19).
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