Tiffani's Life

   I did a post early on titled something like Penis Envy. Its a topic I haven't touched that much upon since then but something I figured I'd write about supplementally. In many ways I think this part of my psychology is one of the more unique things about me but also one of the more complicated things about me as well and something that comes accross my mind. Also, my recent entrees has been more about my progression then goals or rleationship thoughts so here is the change up.   As obvious, I am transitioning to a girl. I've been on hormones for over a month now and actually going into the doctor again about 10 days from now to double the dosage. One of the effects of estrogen is making my privates smaller and when I do the gender reassignment surgery (most likely around 18 months from now) that will be changed into a vagina. So then considering I'm seemingly willingly making the change to female, why would someone like me have penis envy so badly? lol.   To r...

  When I started thinking about this particular topic it occured to me that this may be the beginning of a series of blog entries, so here to hoping this is just the first entree. :) So one of my lifestyle changes that I made a little ago obviously a calorie reduction. Both to slim down and also just have appropriate amount of eating for a girl compared to what I guy would. Reducing the calories wasn't that big of deal, but it made me start caring a lot more of wear the calories come from. For example, I have always not been into candy or boxed bakery goods (like twinkies) for my whole life. The reason has always been they are tasty but not worth the calories to me. Same reason I never got french fries from fast food places. I like them, but when I saw the calories on them they aren't worth it.   Now that i'm "counting calories" and thus the amount of food I can eat every day is reduced, I am doing this to a whole new level. There are many foods i've liked i...

  You know, I find it kind of funny that a lot of my blog entrees so far gives a lot of prerequisite information. I think I do that as to no give improper context. Many times I've noticed disagreements because of people operating under different assumptions and I try hard not to do that myself. And thus I find myself now doing that for this entree.    I referenced in an earlier post about a youtube video I watched about traits of "intelligent people" and I felt a lot of them related to me. One of them was preferring few social contacts due to both avoiding drama that comes with them and often times having different opinions. Kind of the repercussion of being an "outside the box" thinker and the latter one is where my prequalifier comes into play.   Before getting into that, I once again point out that unlike many, I'm not emotionally or stubbornly attache4d to my opinions. For example, I'd have no problem never expressing them and just listening to w...

  On the surface, many people can make the false assumption that I'm willing to rush into things to fast or without thinking. Specifically when it comes to relationships. For example, if I found a good match for a long term relationship with a guy tomorrow, and there was good chemistry, I wouldn't hesititate to do marriage and such relavely quickly. Or a lot of my feminization goals may seems to quick for some, especially when you consider how little experience I have with being a girl or being with guys. For example, I'm a virgin sexually with men, never dated a man before and yet I'd be okay with life time committment with one without much experience to validate my thoughts there. The poins to fthis paragraph is to point out how on the surface, I may seem a little rash when that is entirely not the case.    Small side note, I mentioned this in previous postings but I never know when someone starts reading me. For a variety of reasons such as this blog more being pri...

  Today I had appointment 2 with the doctor continueing the feminization process. About two weeks ago I started the anti-testostorone blockers and today was the appointment for starting the estrogen, which I have done. I am now on 100 mg of anti-testostorone and 2mg of estrogen. From what was explained to me, my next appointment which will be about 4 weeks from now will be to check how I'm doing as move up to 4 mg of estrogen. Then 4 weeks after that will upgrade to 6 mg of estrogen and then 8 weeks after that will determine if I should go up to 8 mg (the maximum) or if 6mg is doing all that is needed. Probably more medical stuff then some care about, but part of this blog is a journal monitoring my progress and thus I'm writing about it.   According to what the doctor said and the research I've done, I should my skin become softer and less oily to noticeable affects within the next 1-2 weeks. I should also be noticing decreased libido sometime within the next 2-12 weeks ...

   A small tidbit that you might find interesting. Sometimes you see larger gaps between my posts then others and sometimes you see a lot of posts right next to each other accross a few days. I'm actually reasonably consistent on when I write which is usually a post every few days. I only write when something is on my mind that I want to right about, but I only publish about half of the blog entrees I have. I wouldn't say that I am a perfectionist by any means, but if when I'm done writing I dont feel I properly conveyed most of what I was tryin gto say, I usually just save it and not publish it. Afterall, the main reason I post is actually just to express my thoughts in writing, the publishing was an afterthought, hehe.   Anyways, I say that because I notice that I haven't posted anything in a little over a week now even though I've written a few. This time I want to write about a youtube video I saw. I tried really hard to find it to link onto this article but t...