Tiffani's Life

   I posted on this before, but after reflection I felt better to do a follow up post on it rather than just edit that one. One of the things I've always been attracted to is gender roles or in this case gender stereotypes. There any many reasons for this. In one aspect I think it adds to the 180 degree change in who I am and who I will be. Well, I guess in my case more of a 170 degree change, hehe. But it also adds to aspects such as the patriarchy and gender roles.    To recap from the earlier post, I am attracted to the idea that men are smarter. And honestly, that is true in many ways. Most know men are more logical, mathematical, drawn to the STEM careers more, usually end up in leadership positions and so on. Evolutionary speaking, women are valued mainly for appearance and domestic capabilities which should certainly be where I orient myself more towards. The question I was struggling with was rather I'd myself dumbing down to be an aspect of my future relat...

The good news is now that i'm doing more and more towards the feminization goal, I've been getting better understandings of what i'm open to, looking for and such in a relationship. I feel that one advantage to me is that I've always able to go where "opportunity takes me." Meaning that there are very few rigid things about me. I think that is one of the things that make me so easy to get along with and at least a compatibility match with most of men if not a romantic match. For the longest time on the feminization thing, I knew I wanted to and should be a girl, and that I'd prefer to be with a man and a dominant man, but other then that very little definities. That is still the case, but I now have ideas of preferences and no gos for me which I think I will start recording down here. WHAT I NEED IN A MAN/RELATIONSHIP You are financially secure (I need to know the man is at least as capable as I am). Genuinely interested in life long relationship/mar...

   There are a few aspects that I expect to be more difficult for myself in my full feminization goals and one of the ones when it comes to a mental aspect is making my personality more feminine and girly. I certainly want to do that, i'm just so used to being introverted, reserved and careful in what I say. Developing a female personality is kind of like a full reboot. I know hormones will help with it and the more I get into the process several parts will become more natural.    Regardless of the type of girl I become, rather it is silly, meek, talkative or so on, when I talk and express myself, the more girly i am the more it puts me in the right mentality, helps my voice and also makes me more passable.    Anyways, one thing that I've figured out that I can start to do as I listen to girly girls talk is to work on specific things at a time and then add onto that as i get to better mastery. To log this, as I find more stereotypical or normal things g...

This is one of the better lists I've found comparing traditional gender types, so I figured I'd put a check mark on things I feel i naturally gravitate towards to give people an idea of how i've been faking being a guy for so long.

So I recently thought that maybe it would be good for me to do some writing on things that are unique about me compared to other trans/sissies/crossdressers that you may date instead. So what I list below are things that I think are uncommon or more unique to me which hopefully will boost your interested in me. Penis Envy - I totally have penis envy! This may seem weird coming from someone transitioning to female, but it totally fits! Though I currently have the parts, its average to below average size, I know textbook wise how to use it but I have no urge to and feels like I'm using a step by step when I try. I have naturally low testarone. I truly am jelous and envious of real men with cocks that I do see as being powerful and I know this will only increase as I fully transition. Hopefully you'll enjoy that added humiliation aspect of me. Not angry/negative/man hating - I am in no way a negative person and I never get angry. Worst I get is a little sulky. This means you...

So this is a very common question I've been getting and I feel it is an important question to ask. It shows how solid my foundation is for wanting to transition fully to a female and gives some insight into my thinking as well. Before going into this, I want to stress that myself failing to be a man to me is a lot like someone failing to become a pro-athlete. Its not that I'm self-hating or anything, its just a reality that I tried to do, and has become more and more obvious that I failed at. I think the first thing in this regard to note about myself is that for my own life, I'm a strong believer in there is male and there is female and no inbetween. Yes, I'll be in that inbetween for probably around 2 years while doing the full transitioning, but that is me moving to one of those two options that I'm better suited for. This is not me bashing lgbt, I respect everyone living the life they want to live, this is just my perspective. I say this first, because it add...

A few times every week there are certain things that really help crystalize how right I am to work towards my feminization goals. One of the ones that really stood out to me this week is stress!!! I stress out really easily over every day things. Its one of the many things I try to avoid along with conflict which kind of shows that I fit better in traditionally feminine roles/personalities. For Examples, just talking normal buisness when say buying a car, or bigger purchases. Or dealing with Customers who are nice to me but not happy with the company I'm with, or things like that. It really causes me to stress out easily. I think about past failed relationships where I pretended to be something I'm not, and how I stress out over both me and them. The stress also causes me to worry over things that I know a real man would never worry about. Like for example, I'm nerdy in that I like Magic the Gathering. When I used to trade cards with other players back in college, I woul...

A few times every week there are certain things that really help crystalize how right I am to work towards my feminization goals. One of the ones that really stood out to me this week is stress!!! I stress out really easily over every day things. Its one of the many things I try to avoid along with conflict which kind of shows that I fit better in traditionally feminine roles/personalities. For Examples, just talking normal buisness when say buying a car, or bigger purchases. Or dealing with Customers who are nice to me but not happy with the company I'm with, or things like that. It really causes me to stress out easily. I think about past failed relationships where I pretended to be something I'm not, and how I stress out over both me and them. The stress also causes me to worry over things that I know a real man would never worry about. Like for example, I'm nerdy in that I like Magic the Gathering. When I used to trade cards with other players back in college, I woul...

Apparently Sex Dolls is getting more and more popular, especially in Eastern Countries and as I've read about it, it seems that many guys are saying they are better then women for many reasons which are probably towards the more feminist/liberated woman. https://www.nairaland.com/4579076/15-reasons-why-se… https://me.me/i/more-news-s-doll-y-bird-sex-dolls-a… https://www.reddit.com/r/MGTOW/comments/9ct2fh/this… The last link especially shows what I'm thinking about. As anyone who've read my stuff knows, I'm currently working on fully feminizing myself and though I do have personal interests that I like to keep up, mainly on my nerdy side, becoming the best girl I can be for men is my priority. So this kind of stuff catches my interest because it illustrates why I'm perfectly okay with men objectifying women and me. If I'm not okay with that, then am I better then these sex dolls? So when I work towards my feminization goals, I have to ask myself questi...

Like the housewife thing that i've solidified more on as my goal, the dumber girl is a goal I'm starting to gravitate too more and I think there are two reasons for this. The first is that it does have some flexibility depending on the guy I end up with and the second reason is how it significantly impacts the kind of girl I become. For example, I'm considered by a lot of people as pretty intelligent. Besides the fact that if I become a more simple minded girl that it would be more of a radical change and thus a new me, it would also be incredibly humbling. To go from being respected by almost everyone I talk to, to people just laughing off what I say or blatantly it in some way. It also significantly adds to the gender dynamic of men seen as more logical and intelligent and girls not meant for that kind of thing. It would also add as a degrading constant reminder that whenever something indicates myself being air headed, i'll remember what I once was and never will ...

First I want to preface this that this is something I'm leaning towards, but I'll be perfectly happy in a relationship where I work as well. I care mostly about the chemistry and relationship strength. So this is more of a writing on something that would peak my interest. So I'm now very confident I want to lean towards being a real man's housewife. I've always thought about it and have always leaned 50/50 or a little against because I think I do like my career or creating/doing stuff. But just like I know I should have always been a girl and fought it, I think the same thing is happening to me on the housewife front. To address what I just said, I love the aspect of being expected to give up my careers and my own ambitions to take on the fully support role of the man and family and for his goals to be my number once concern and priority. That right there I think starts the relationship off with the right priorities. I'm naturally drawn to male superiority ...

I think often of what is the fastest but also best way to move towards my feminization goals which I'm soooo happy to finally be making measurable steps towards. (First few months in philly started really rough :( ) One thing that I can only get better on through practice is developing a more feminine/girly personality and working on my voice. My voice in unisex right now leaning towards the feminine so i'm bless with a good head start there. I make a point that most of the things I listen to is women naturally talking about things like make up and fashion hoping constant exposure will help me with that. But something I'm now starting to actively do is practice when I'm playing video games. I'll use Overwatch as my example for this, but I'm trying to do better in other games as well. Voice chat is pretty much a must in competitive overwatch so it gives me a chance to work on my voice. Whenever someone calls me out on it, I know exactly where to practice on. F...

  So this is probably going to be one of the most unique things I write here. Especially considering I'm just starting out with my feminization goals. I'm looking forward to having penis envy. Like right now, one of the reasons I know i'm better off becoming a girl is that, even though i see how girls are attractiv, i really have no urge of what to do about it other then admire. I don't have any of that drive guys with cocks have. It shows how superiorly/masculine they are compared to me already. So I'ma  little envious of that.   I do plan to fully feminize as I'm into the male/female dynamic not the trans thing. I know I'll have penis envy more so after the fact because it will be an impossibility. I like that aspect as it helps keep my perspective. It also signifies cock being a sign of power which I admire.     Allow me to elaborate on that a little bit with an example. If i was to have a real man's cock right in front of me there would be to co...

I spend a lot of time trying to figure out more of what I want both in my feminization and in a relationship. One of the things that I've always felt would be more natural and good for me is doing the 180 degrees change from independent/capable (which I feel like I'm failing at to be honest) to the vulnerable female. A lot of time when I mention something like that to people, they think mainly of bdsm related things, and though I'm not opposed to that, i think more about the every day things that girls have become accusomed to both physically and mentally. Like physically, everything about a girl is already inferior to men and then social expectations double down on that. For example, girls smaller, weaker and less capable then men in muscle mass and things. That automatically makes women more dependent on the people around them for things as simple as buying a lot of groceries, or being able to defend themselves. Then there is the fashion. Heels make it almost impossibl...

I get this question every once in a while and figured I'd give some explanation to why I like it and what it is. For those who do not know, in normal rpg or team based games there are three general roles. DPS which stand for damage per second and are usually the main form of inflicting damage on the other team, tank which basically protects team mates, create space or attracts the attention of the other team and healer/support which keeps the team alive or in some way buffs/improves their skills. In gaming there is a general stereotype given to these roles that most are aware of but till recently hasn't been verbalized super much. Its that tanks are almost always men, dps are the aggressive type of player also usually men, and healers are usually girl players. Till recently girls have always not always been respected as "pro" gamers and thus the stereotype is that they play healer because it is the easier role to play. The healslut thing sexualizes that as well. ...